Friday, April 29, 2011

A blessing of trees and storms

The Man Watching
-Rainer Maria Rilke

I can tell by the way the trees beat, after
so many dull days, on my worried windowpanes
that a storm is coming,
and I hear the far-off fields say things
I can't bear with a friend,
I can't love without a sister.

The storm, the shifter of shapes, drives on
across the woods and across time,
and the world looks as if it had no age:
the landscape, like a line in the psalm book,
is seriousness and weight and eternity.

What we choose to fight is so tiny!
What fights with us is so great!
If only we would let ourselves be dominated
as things do by some immense storm,
we would become strong too, and not need names.

When we win it's with small things,
and the triumph itself makes us small.
What is extraordinary and eternal
does not want to be bent by us.
I mean the Angel who appeared
to the wrestlers of the Old Testament:
when the wrestlers' sinews
grew long like metal strings,
he felt them under his fingers
like chords of deep music.

Whoever was beaten by this Angel
(who often simply declined the fight)
went away proud and strengthened
and great from that harsh hand,
that kneaded him as if to change his shape.
Winning does not tempt that man.
This is how he grows: by being defeated, decisively,
by constantly greater beings.

-Translated by Robert Bly
Edited by Roger Housden

Friday, April 22, 2011

Are you ULPing yourself?

The Big Leap: Conquer Your Hidden Fear and Take Life to the Next LevelI read an interesting book that's been hanging with me, the learnings flitting back to me here and there as I continue on my own personal upward spiral of growth, The Big Leap, by Gay Hendricks. It's a quick read and is all about recognizing what the author calls "Upper Limit Problems," problems (self-limiting beliefs, really) such as consciously holding oneself back so as not to outshine a sibling or so as not to take more than one's share of space in a given situation. Some of us are brought up to believe that it's rude to act as if we matter or are in any way an authority. Once we notice that we're held by an Upper Limit Problem (ULP) such as this (there are others that you can read about in the book) we can begin to understand where and how we're holding ourselves back by not owning our own potential.

The Big Leap provides guidance and inspiration that attunes the reader's awareness in such a way that knowing what to do next is a no-brainer -- live in the Zone of Genius, of course! To get to the Zone of Genius, that place where we're being more, experiencing more happiness, well being and wealth, and making a bigger contribution to the world (a man after my own heart!<3), we must get past our Upper Limit Problem -- stop ULPing ourselves, as it were. Hendricks invites the following self-inquiry as a means of evoking the Zone of Genius:
  • Am I willing to increase the amount of time every day that I feel good inside?
  • Am I willing to increase the amount of time that my whole life goes well?
  • Am I willing to feel good and have my whole life go well all the time?
Sounds pretty nice, huh? With helpful exercises to get clear on your Zone of Genius, to Articulate Your Unique Ability, and even to redefine time so there's always enough of it, it's hard to come away without feeling an expanded sense of what's possible. I'd love to continue the conversation of what reading this book evokes in you and share learnings. If you've read it or intend to, let me know what came up for you by leaving a comment here.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Getting caught up?

There's been a resounding theme of catch-up this week in my scope of awareness. Are you noticing it, too?

People seem to be playing catch-up all around me, myself included. ...and it wasn't until the other day that I began to realize what bullshit this game of catch-up actually is. There I was, moving along steadily, right on schedule, all snuggly and warm in my Personal Safety Zone, then *BLAM* -- I get hit hard in the center of my chest with a tremendous blow of anxiety. It came on as I was listening to a recording of a class I had missed... I wasn't doing anything terribly strenuous and, in fact, was feeling really good about reconnecting, albeit virtually, with my teacher and classmates. I knew I needed some support so I stopped what I was doing, made note of the specific topic that was being discussed at the time of the anxiety attack, then began writing about it.

The details of what triggered this anxiety in me are not as relevant as what I learned from writing. Here's what was revealed as I wrote:
"It's about _______. Seriously, [do I have to do this] right now? I'm frustrated because I HAVE to wait  before I can use this piece. I HAVE to wait until I figure out how the heck I'm going to do this other thing -- and in a REALLY big way. I HAVE to bank the knowledge I'm gaining and trust that I'll apply it later. That's really frustrating and causing me anxiety. I SO want to apply more of this right now. ...now, is it really true that I HAVE to wait? No. ...and, I'm still making good progress if I don't [do this] right now."
 
Do you see it? I was clearly NOT being present. I was moving along ALOT faster than I'd realized and getting ahead of myself. My body knew this and retaliated, forcing me to slow down and come back to the reality of what was there for me, in that very moment.
 
I took a few deep breaths, closed my eyes and asked, "so, what now?" Then it came to me, loud and clear. If I go after something like I'm chasing it, I'm always going to have to work to catch up with it. This way of going about things is very likely to be stressful, if not at first, then after some time, then, if the chase continues, that stress will turn to anxiety. This can lead to a dreadful loop of self-deprecation, drained energy and even depression.
 
From a place of grounded, centered presence, there is room to think, plan and prioritize. Anything becomes possible as you focus simply on what is and embrace what you want so fully that you really get to know it. There's actually enough room in that very moment, right there on the spot, to notice that you are actually right on time and don't have to get caught up at all!
 
So, I ask you, when you play catch-up, how does it feel? Where are you or have you been playing catch-up in your life? I'd love to hear from you on this.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Clear Vision: Building the Foundation for an Intact Ability to Love

I received an email from a dear friend the other day that I want to tell you about -- and in the spirit of honoring her request to share this with all that I know, I've included an excerpt from her note below. I'm so inspired by the depth and beauty of Robin Lim's vision that I'm submitting this as the first installment of the new Clear Vision segment of my newsletter, Walk The Talk. I'm boundlessly grateful to my friend Jenny for passing this along to me so I could share it with you here.

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Hello Friends,

I recently returned from Bali, Indonesia, where I was serving pregnant, laboring and birthing women and their families.  I was volunteering at Yayasan Bumi Sehat--Healthy Mother Earth Foundation.  Guerrilla Midwife is an inspirational, educational, and award-winning documentary about the important work this foundation's and its founder, Ibu ("Mother") Robin Lim's, offer to the world-- providing gentle loving birth services, midwifery training, and direct aid in Indonesia and disaster areas.  Robin has recently been featured on CNN as one of their heroes.

Please come join us in seeing this beautiful film.  All proceeds will benefit Yayasan Bumi Sehat.  Please open your hearts and allow the seeds of Love to change you forever.
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For more information:
www.bumisehatbali.org

or check out the info about the film Guerrilla Midwife
www.skwattacamp.com

Film Showings of Guerrilla Midwife to be held in Santa Cruz, CA (we will have DVD's available for sale also):
    Friday, May 13th, 7pm: Santa Cruz Waldorf School
    Friday, May 20th, 7:30pm: The Ugly Mug

Benefit Dance Class:  African-inspired with Debbie Nargi-Brown
    Thursday, May 19th, 6:30pm, The Louden Nelson Community Center

Please share with all that you know.  Bumi Sehat is truly an inspiring organization that is dedicated to the health of humanity and peace on the planet.

From my Heart,
Jenny
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I'd love to hear what this evokes in you. Whether you're called to action, left feeling a bit raw or somewhere in between, please take a moment and leave a comment. Let's continue the conversation...